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Originally for the Sam Winchester Big Bang 2017 on tumblr! The first chapter is the primary fanfic, and the rest of the chapters are supplementary comics! "Bar fight. Don't tell Dean. I don't want to hear it. You just... You understand best. You get it best, y'know? You get me." Death brings Sam back — sort of. A domestic, curtain-fic sort of piece that explores different sections of what makes Sam Winchester. An alternative to S07E01, where raising our boy's soul doesn't go exactly to plan. Warning for psychological issues, mental anguish, mentions of torture, and so on. Also has minor self-harm (unintentional harm). ART MASTERPOST by the lovely art by quickreaver: http://quickreaver.livejournal.com/149990.html (possible spoilers abound)

Sam remembers his last conversation with Dean after he started the apocalypse, and decides to complete one last hunt, remove one last evil from the world. Lots of suicidal!Sam and hurt!Sam, and probably some guilty!Dean later on.{{Trigger warning; suicide attempt(s?)}}

After being hit with a truth spell Sam's forced to reveal some shattering things about himself, including that he was raped and that he loves Dean like no brother should love his sibling, he runs away. Dean manages to find him almost a year later and now his younger brother is addicted to heroin and is into self-harm. Sam can't believe that Dean feels the same about him and feels like Dean only pities him. Dean has to use a spell on Sam before Sam realizes Dean feels the same and with time and love Dean convinces Sam that they share a special bond.

When Dean is possessed, Sam is frantic that Dean not experience what he knows possession to be like. Dean's experience of possession means not only loosing bodily autonomy but being tortured with his own worst memories and fears.

“Shh,” the intruder cooed in his ear. The man rubbed his jaw along the side of Dean’s face, almost like a caress. Dean breathed hard through his nose as he listened to the rumble of the impala fading away. His father was gone. Sammy was missing. And Dean was clearly outmatched. If he could just reach his colt-

Remember that powder that Magnus had, that could control people? What if Dean decided to use it on Sam, pushed by the Mark's dictatorship? What if it gets out of control?

Sam and Dean aren't hunters. Their mother wasn't killed by a demon, and they didn't spend their whole lives flitting from on motel room o the next. For the most part, they also weren't friends. When news comes of Sam and Jessica's engagement, Dean realises just how badly he screwed things up with his little brother, but it might just be too little that late, because that night Sam's car is run off the road and all of their lives are changed for ever.

What Dean doesn't know won't hurt him, but it will hurt Sam. Everytime Dean leaves on a hunt the monster hurts him Sam wants to tell Dean about the monster but is scared Can Dean help Sam before the monster kills him. Non-Con Don't like don't read.