pristine (to murder a lover)
You, the Reader, are essentially immortal thanks to an ancestor's Hatsu that has remained active even after death. The condition? Find and protect your soulmate. Soulmates are fated pairs; if one dies, so does the other.
After years of wandering the streets and undergoing unspeakable abuse, you are rescued (your higher ups are killed) by Illumi Zoldyck and his give and take partner, Hisoka Morow. You quickly find out the latter is your soulmate. But what follows is a cacophony of torture and imprisonment as a toy in his possession.
As a suicidal immortal who wants to die, the only option left to you for leaving this world is by soul-death, the loss of your soulmate. Therefore, you wisely decide that it would be a good idea to try to kill Hisoka (indirectly of course, since your family's Hatsu would never allow you to harm the one you're most meant to protect).
You carry out this idea by sending all sorts of assassins and mercenaries in Hisoka's direction, much to his amusement (especially when a certain Zoldyck is among them).
*Can be read from any gender perspective.