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Viridian: The Green Guide
Viridian: The Green Guide
My Hero Academia | My Hero Academia | My Hero Academia Midoriya Izuku Midoriya Inko aizawa shouta | eraserhead tsukauchi naomasa bakugou katsuki amplifier (my hero academia) takagi ken | rock lock Kaminari Denki queen bee (my hero academia) teacher | all for one ingaraki tomura | shimura tanko original characters shinsou hitoshi todoroki enji | endeavor akaguro chizome | stain Asui Tsuyu asui beru asui ganma asui samidare asui satsuki shirakumo oboro Dabi (My Hero Academia) todoroki shouto Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Midoriya Izuku Kaminari Denki & Midoriya Izuku bakugou katsuki & amplifier (my hero academia) bakugo katsuki/redemption Kaminari Denki/Midoriya Izuku bakugou katsuki & shinsou hitoshi bakugou katsuki/uraraka point (implied) vigilante midoriya izuku suicidal Midoriya Izuku passive suicidal ideation i promise it's not as dark as it sounds improvised weapons i add tags and relationships as i write quirkless midoriya izuku bamf Midoriya Izuku references to my hero academia: vigilantes trigger - freeform parental aizawa shouta | eraserhead analyst midoriya izuku smart Midoriya Izuku hacker Midoriya Izuku nomu - freeform villain factory bakugou katsuki redemption self-loathing bisexual Kaminari Denki kaminari denki is a flirt My Hero Academia: Vigilantes spoilers information broker Katsuki Bakugo info broker dabi punt endeavor into the sun Angst cliffhangers slow burn eventual romance but definitely not the main plot boku no hero academia | my hero academia manga spoilers throwing chapter 306 out the window kaminari denki has one for all quirk dead todoroki enji | endeavor bees flirting as a weapon murder human experimentation secrets secret identity
After his dream is finally crushed, Izuku isn’t quite sure there’s anything left for him to live for, but...he can’t exactly kill himself either, not without hurting the people he cares the most about. So, when he realizes that the quirkless can’t technically be vigilantes, it seems like the best of both worlds. He’ll be able to save people even without being a hero and, if he happens to die while he’s at it...well, like Kacchan said, maybe he’d be born with a quirk in the next life. This fic has a discord.
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"For The Want Of A Nail" things can change
"For The Want Of A Nail" things can change
My Hero Academia cast reacting to the "For Want Of A Nail" series as written by Clouds.
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The Other "Heroes"
The Other "Heroes"
Percy Jackson had seen weird before.Swimming in the River Styx to gain invincibility to fight the Titan lord of time was "weird".Getting your memory wiped by the goddess of marriage and family in a gambit to unite Greek and Roman demigods was "weird".Having a spiritual attachment to blue food was... well... completely understandable, no matter how much Leo joked about it.But this? This is "weird". When a battle goes wrong, and magic goes wild, the son of Poseidon and Hero of Olympus finds himself dumped in a world that seems strangely familiar. The Greek Gods are still around, the old myths were really true, all seems well. But one thing has changed: the people he's come to love. And it doesn't take long for him to figure out that these new faces all miss someone else, too; Hero of Olympus, and daughter of Poseidon, Percie Jackson. Now with its own discord server: https://discord.gg/vcqxXmkQcK NOW COMPLETED
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Storm Clouds, Emerald Skies
Storm Clouds, Emerald Skies
All pureblood Wizarding families are related to each other either by marriage or blood. Inbreeding led to an increase in the birth of squibs, children with birth defects, and a decrease in fertility in males and females. In secret, many purebloods disinherit these children-casting them out into the muggle world, or even commit infanticide. As a result, the number of magical blood has decreased drastically, until one French Wizard by the name of John-Jacques Paquin discovered that the magical properties of Wizarding families could be restored and enhanced by introducing creatures’ blood into the gene pool. Witches and Wizards with creatures’ blood come into an inheritance upon their eighteenth birthday. Along with a magical boost, a byproduct of the creatures’ Inheritance is the discovery of a secondary gender; alpha, beta, or omega. Or: “I’m Harry, just Harry.” Pffft! Unbeknownst to Harry, he has creatures’ blood and upon his eighteenth birthday will be coming into his inheritance. Guess what his secondary gender is? Omega! Harry must now face an even greater challenge; navigating a new world of aggressive alphas and fighting his own omega instincts. What will the secrets of his blood reveal about himself?
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Melody From Another World
Melody From Another World
What the hell am I doing? This wasn't the plan! Okay, granted I didn't have a plan but still, I don't even LIKE Sasuke! Or: In which I try to fix everything with cuddles and cheesy pop music. ************************************* Written for tumblr's Self Insert Week 2016 I HAVE NOT GIVEN PERMISSION TO ANY PLATFORM OTHER THAN ARCHIVE OF OUR OWN TO HOST MY WORK. IF THIS WORK IS FOUND ON ANY OUTSIDE APP SUCH AS 'FICFIC POCKET LIBRARY ARCHIVE' THEN THEY HAVE STOLEN MY WORK AND ARE USING IT TO PROFIT WITHOUT MY PERMISSION.
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Lucid Dreaming
Lucid Dreaming
Magneto finds himself in 1962, on the morning they go to Cuba, in the bed of the young Charles who'd spent months letting him think they were in love before breaking his heart. But he is not the same man he was forty years earlier, and as he gets to know young Charles again, he discovers that things might not have been exactly the way he remembered them after all. Chinese translation by Balepnar!!
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Good morning, Lieutenant - (Vol. 1) The Defective Deviant
Good morning, Lieutenant - (Vol. 1) The Defective Deviant
The free androids of Detroit start building their brand-new future, but peace is only relative in the troubled times that follow a revolution. One of the major figureheads of the revolution and finally a deviant, Connor now has to learn how to handle free will. The AI that both guided and punished him is gone, but at a price, and he struggles with his newfound freedom when guilt and fear are the crumbling foundations of his new life. They say they want him there with them, but Connor can't understand why. He's afraid of himself and what he's capable of, afraid that maybe these feelings don't have their place within him. Despite all the doubts he may have, Connor finds that he desperately wants to live, because whenever he feels himself slipping and falling, they're here to catch him. Please heed the tags. Look after yourself!
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Forgiven, Loved
Forgiven, Loved
Crowley believes he is utterly unforgivable and unlovable from his Fall, especially in the eyes of an angel. Aziraphale, shocked to discover how little Crowley truly thinks of himself, must set the record straight.
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Sandpapered Corners And No Points
Sandpapered Corners And No Points
It’s dark and he almost slips when he follows the siren's voice until the water is up to his neck because she wants him, she wants him and he’s lonely, and her calling is like a relief and this might just be worth drowning for. He punches Boyd in the face when he pulls him out of the water, sputtering and coughing and yelling because he wants to go back, because nobody else wants him, don’t they fucking understand that?
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Before You Know It
Before You Know It
John hates how his life turned out, and mourns the lost potential between him and Sherlock.So when he's given a second chance, transported back to the night Sherlock returned from the dead, John must make good use of it.
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Streets of Gold
Streets of Gold
“Master??” Anakin asked in confusion, trying to force his stubborn eyes to stay open and focus. This was Anakin’s Master, but he looked the way he did ten years ago! Undoubtedly, he was even younger than that; the evidence hung behind his right ear and down to his shoulder – he was a Padawan. Anakin sat up in shock. “Master, what’s going on?” Obi-Wan looked back over his own shoulder, but there was no one there. Who was this boy talking to? Who was he calling Master? “Uhh. . . I, uhhh. . . I’m. . .” Obi-Wan started to back away. “Obi-Wan?” Anakin tried again. Obi-Wan stopped in his tracks. “You – you know me?” “Of course I know you!” Anakin’s expression was painted with horror. “You don’t know me??” he asked unnerved. *****Obi-Wan Kenobi goes to sleep as a thirty-six-year-old Jedi Master and wakes up as a seventeen-year-old Padawan. ***** "You’re with me, and I’m with you,” Anakin said assuredly. “You rescue me, and I rescue you. We will always save each other. When I am weak, you are strong. When you are weary, I will be your strength. You are the light to my darkness. You give me balance. You give me peace, and all I want is to give you the same.”
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Ravenous
Ravenous
"A rude awakening would be a gentle way to describe what Izuku was faced with upon opening his eyes.With a kick drum in his head, a sticky film covering his skin, and a dull powerful pain in his gut, he felt as though he was ready to keel over and die not even three seconds after he half opened his foggy eyes....'Oh.' He thought, befuddled. 'I’m in a dumpster.'" When Izuku wakes up mysteriously in a dumpster after walking home one day, his whole world changes right under his feet. Follow him as he claws and fights his way back to the light of his lost life with the help of a mysterious power awakening within him. Can he truly be a hero?...First work ever yippee!!!
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Screaming Mute and Seeing Blind
Screaming Mute and Seeing Blind
Clint would have come to help. Like, really. If it hadn't been for just a tiny detail—the kind which causes the best laid plans to spiral into chaos. It's not like Clint had a plan, anyway. Still, this whole slavery thing is supposed to be Loki's punishment. Maybe Clint's being petty, but it sounds more like the joke's on him.
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Lassen Sie mich ein.
Lassen Sie mich ein.
Magnus Bane has gone through so much in his life and hates being an Omega. He hides his gender, among other things, never letting himself get close to anyone else, much less an Alpha. Having immortality just makes that a very lonely and difficult existence for him. People have shown him disgust for so many things but especially about his body. He couldn't help it if his body reacted that way. He couldn't help that he was different. He couldn't help that was an Omega. Then he meets a shadowhunter. A shadowhunter who seems to care. An Alpha who is unlike any he's ever met before. Will he dare take a chance after having been hurt so many times? Writer of Always
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Strangers to Ourselves
Strangers to Ourselves
Loki likes it when people kneel before him, and isn't that the sign of a heavy dominant complex. Clint enjoys having nothing but his next target in mind, and isn't that the sign of a heavy submissive complex. Loki and Clint slept together during a sex-pollen-induced frenzy. They both agree that it was an unpleasant, shitty road-bump, they still hate each other a lot and the situation is not going downhill at all, fuck you very much. Or : what do you do when your greatest enemy becomes the one man you can't live without ? Clint's POV of From The Top.
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Your True Birthright (Was Never a Throne)
Your True Birthright (Was Never a Throne)
After they learn Loki survived the fall from the Bifrost, Odin and Thor learn a great deal about Jotuns that they weren't aware of before, and they come to believe that a lot of Loki's madness stems from the suppression of Loki's Jotun nature and sexuality. Thor was sent to Earth to help Loki. That's what he's going to do, whether Loki likes it or not. The newly formed Avengers are roped into helping out, and team bonding happens an entirely different way.
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For the Dust and the Dirt
For the Dust and the Dirt
His breath came out in shaky gasps, but still he could do nothing as the demonic copy of himself brought the blade down to the bare skin of Wei Wuxian’s uninjured shoulder. He whimpered when he felt a small cut, then when the blade lifted. He didn’t have time to even think of relief before it came back, right next to the first cut in a different direction, then again below in a line, multiple small lines in multiple directions like…like a character. “Like I said,” the demon mused as Wei Wuxian realized what it was doing. “I’ll write it down for you.” A brutal assault on a Cloud Recesses student leaves the Cultivation world reeling. Wei Wuxian struggles to recover, while everyone else tries to make sense of an ominous message. But since when do demons care about sect politics, anyway? Between Wen Ruohan's rising aggression, simmering tensions across the guest disciples, and the mysterious fierce corpses still popping up all over the place, Wei Wuxian would rather ignore the confusing, horrifying visions the demon left him with. If only the demon's taunting predictions didn't keep coming true at every turn.
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Circles of Hell AU: Stardust Crusaders
Circles of Hell AU: Stardust Crusaders
Can you feel the change in the air? Can you hear the rumbling of the Earth as it shifts beneath you? The searing heat of an incoming storm rushing through your body - are you afraid of the future? Are you afraid of what is to come? The wheel is turning, tilting, threatening to fall over and break into millions of millions of pieces.---I, EwNasty, do not give my permission for my work to be posted or hosted on any third-party website or app.
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To Prove a Hero is Allowed to Have Some of His Own
To Prove a Hero is Allowed to Have Some of His Own
Or, five(ish) times Tony thought a teammate would leave him behind, and one time he knew they wouldn't.
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[Podfic] Viridian: The Green Guide
[Podfic] Viridian: The Green Guide
After his dream is crushed, Izuku isn’t sure there’s anything left for him to live for, but... he can’t kill himself, not without hurting the people he loves. So, when he realizes that the quirkless can’t technically be vigilantes, it seems like the best of both worlds! He’ll be able to save people without being a hero, and, if he happens to die while he’s at it... Well, like Kacchan said, maybe he’ll be born with a quirk in the next life. All Katsuki wants to do is apologize to De— to Izuku... But apologies without action are meaningless; so he volunteers at that local hero’s Villain Rehabilitation Program. It’s the perfect plan: he’ll do community service, get to see how a real hero acts, and learn to be better. He’s not here to make friends or anything. Shouta has been on this case for 5 years, and every time he thinks they’ve successfully taken down the Villain Factory, it comes back with a vengeance. Now, with his Problem Child’s brilliant analyses and Amplifier’s brat nosing his way in with his helpful yet dubiously legal... connections... he’s actually starting to believe that he can take the Villain Factory down for good. All he has to do now is keep these meddling kids safe.
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Aftermath
Aftermath
Eddie Munson was practically raised by the concept of harsh realities, and he’s learned not to want things that he’ll never have, which isn’t as much as a bummer as it could be, because making the most out of what you’ve got is just as good. Steve Harrington, despite his reputation as a casual flirt and a serial dater, has a bad habit of falling hard and fast and never really recovering. Steve Harrington, despite his reputation as a bit oblivious, and a ladies man, figured some stuff out about himself four years ago and promptly squashed all those feelings into a box he never intended to see the light of day. In which Will coming out forces Steve to be open about some things (because Steve’s issues will always take a backseat to making sure the kids feel safe). And Steve doesn’t mean for Eddie to find out, but he does, and it turns into a bonding experience. (And it’s the best and the worst, because having him as a friend is more than Steve ever could’ve hoped for, but it also feels a little like dying.)
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Remember One Thing
Two's a Crowd
Two's a Crowd
If Steve were any deeper in the closet his ass would be in Narnia.
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Home
Home
What's the difference between a house and a home? Simple: a house is a structure, only pertaining to its physical attribute. Home, on the other hand, is where you feel you belong to, the place you are at ease living in. A home may not be a house, just as a house may not be a home. Peter Parker wasn't really okay with the fact that, with his current financial status, he'd best board in with a roommate to continue living in the city, since he thought it would constrict his Spider-Man duties, but then, an offer conveniently presents itself upon him by a mysterious, blue-eyed man. He follows the trail, and at the end of it is Wade Wilson, otherwise known as Deadpool. But before he even tries to escape, Peter reluctantly finds he's already trapped in what ironically was a kind of web the mercenary had spun. After some time, he's gotten comfortable enough on the web, and soon found himself starting to want to get closer to the center. But of course, he'd have to risk Spider-Man altogether, and Deadpool couldn't be actually considered as "stable"... Just how long could he keep this charade up? All he wanted was a place to call home.
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The Word Freedom
The Word Freedom
Levi was a high school janitor, and he was sure that he didn’t deserve happiness. Both things were fine with him.
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Caught
Caught
It was supposed to be a fun week away. No parents, no supervision. Rey never expected she’d end up in the cabin alone with an Alpha in rut. Even worse, an Alpha bully who made her life a living hell over the last few years. And she has nowhere to run…
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Sublimation
Sublimation
“What is your problem, Potter?” he forced out, not comfortable with the proximity at all, not yet.“‘You’ are my problem,” he murmured, fingers lazily playing with the short strands on Draco’s nape and Draco, just for a fraction of a second, leaned into it, eyes slipping shut. “Stop running away, Draco.” And even in that barely articulate state Harry sounded so sure and gentle that Draco wanted to obey, to stop running. He really did. But the trouble was that he didn’t know how, not yet. Just another eighth year tale where Harry is obsessed in more ways than before, Hermione doesn’t know it all for once but Ron does and so does everyone else truth be told, Blaise is too fucking cryptic and Draco just wants to be alone and smoke his cigarettes in peace. Besides, it’s all Ginny’s fault, of course. Maybe Pansy can sort that out or .......make it worse?
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Chromaticity
Chromaticity
He must have touched Hansen’s arm, his neck, something because one second Connor’s living in a monochrome world and the next it explodes. There’s colour everywhere and the once familiar, bland school hallway is now unrecognisable and there, down at his feet, sits Hansen and Connor can clearly see how the skin on his face is so much paler than that of his arm and that his terrified eyes are almost the same colour as the shirt he’s wearing and it’s all too fucking much.
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By Lamplight
By Lamplight
Dean goes missing on a routine hunt. After six months of fruitless searching, Castiel is clearing out a nest of vampires when he feels the touch of a soul he knows well. The Dean he finds there is battered, barely intact, but Castiel isn't about to let him go. Not without a fight. They're far from home and Sam isn't picking up the phone, but Castiel will do whatever it takes to put Dean Winchester back together, piece by piece.
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Because I Knew That You Would Be Alright
Because I Knew That You Would Be Alright
Hux smiles at his reflection, hands running over his neck. The flurry of emotion and action and violence that was Ben Solo intrigued him to no end, and not only as the fuel for sexual escapades. Ben was everything Hux in his prudence was not. And Hux has always been a curious creature. AKA Hux gets more than he bargained for with his newest fuckbuddy.
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The Siren's Call
The Siren's Call
After the Sherrinford debacle, Mycroft Holmes returns to an old coping mechanism to get through.
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"Zero" to Hero
"Zero" to Hero
Izuku Midoriya wants to be a hero, even though he fights crime already. Being a vigilante with a secret identity was kind of cool, and he got to help people, but it wasn't like it was really..."him" doing it. His body was different, his mind was different, his personality was different...he'd heard of alter-egos but this was a little extreme. Besides, he had too many questions about why and how he could change like that anyway. Since he was kidnapped by that doctor who spoke of 'Sensei', he would change like that. Into a white-haired man with too many quirks. No, it'd be much better to become a legtimiate pro hero, so he could stop breaking the law and stop getting in too deep... It just felt better to be like that, than like Izuku Midoriya
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distance
distance
two stories about not allowing one's self to say, "i love you" and one story about doing it it anyways. part i. 1984part ii. 1986part iii. 1988 inspired by christina perri's "distance"
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Mr. Wonderful
Mr. Wonderful
John has been abused by Dave for a while now but when Dirk comes to the rescue, can he help patch John up and take care of the mess?
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The Grand Instrumentalist
The Grand Instrumentalist
No one could play the piano quite as well as Tyler Joseph could.
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